Gangster

It's National Infertility Awareness Week and I'm feeling a little bit gangster.

Until now I had been pretty private about my struggles in real life just because I knew how obnoxious and hurtful people could be regardless of how supportive they were attempting to be. I wasn't looking for horrible unsolicited advice or constant questions reminding me of my issues.

 Yes, I am now happily pregnant and yes that's probably why I have the guts to now be gangster about it. Better late than than never? I've been posting about it all week on FB. I think it sucks how taboo the subject really is and how many people will pretend they aren't seeing my status updates. I don't care I just want people to learn a little something.

 I am considering coming out on FB about my pregnancy at the end of the week. I mean psshh, let's be serious.. my big ol' baby is already measuring 12 weeks so I may as well! 

It's A.....

Human!!!! 

I am so glad to report our baby actually looks like a baby now! Not a crawfish, dragon, blob, critter, lint ball, or anything else weird.. but a freaking human baby!

I will go ahead and apologize now if every sentence in this post ends in "!!!!!" My appointment was pretty amazing and I'm very excited!

Unfortunately, the video I took only recorded for the very first 5 seconds.. devastating.. but like Chad said, "that appointment will forever be burned into my memory!"

This picture does it no justice with how it looked live... but without further adieu.. 

The first thing out of my RE's mouth was, "wow there's a big baby!" A baby it was! I was in awe to see my baby finally look like a baby. We saw the brain, jaw bone, 4 chambers of the heart, a pot belly just like mommy, the cord, the spine, 2 arms, 2 legs, and even fingers!! The RE said that the baby was already trying to suck it's thumbs bringing both hand to it's mouth and then we actually saw it happen! 

Sweet P moving around was the coolest thing I've ever seen in my life. I joked that it was probably a girl because the baby had a great turn out and seemed to be doing plies! Seriously the coolest thing ever. The hb went down a little to 163bpm (from 178bpm last time) which is great. When I went in to our appt I knew that at 10 weeks the baby should measure 1.22" or 30mm in length. When I asked for our measurement the RE said we have a big baby measuring at 42mm which is almost 2"! Holla! I'm glad to know Sweet P is doing so well and growing healthy but I'm sure my opinion of a big baby will change in a couple of months.. especially when it comes time to push! 

9.5 Weeks

As much as I wanted to wait to tell my work that I'm pregnant I ended up telling my boss on Friday. Partially because I swear I've caught him checking out my extra sexy bloat a few time but mostly because we will be flying together for a work trip to Memphis tomorrow. I really didn't want him wondering why all of a sudden I'm choosing a pat down instead of an x-ray scan at the airport. I mean who really wants this? 

Yes, please... grab my junk. 

I will leave you with a few new gems straight from my husband's mouth on this episode of Shit My Husband Says:

(Pointing to my boobs) "You really need to start pullin' on those things to callus them up so they have more durability."

(As I am painting my toe nails) "Are the fumes from that good for the baby?" (I laugh) "I'm serious, I don't want you giving birth to a crack baby"

Mic Check?

1, 2. 1, 2. 

My bad. 

I was a little paranoid (okay a lot paranoid) after our first u/s so that's why I've been a little MIA. Even though we saw our baby with a heart beat at only 5w6d I couldn't help but wonder if my fairy tale was going to be short lived. I stupidly read horror stories of women seeing the hb at 6 weeks but not at 8. Bad idea. 

We decided to tell our families anyway Easter weekend and then April Fools day. I will do a separate post about those once I put together a video compilation of how we told them and their reactions. 

On to the good news... 

8w3d

My speck of a baby that we saw two weeks ago is now a blob!The hb at the last appt was 105bpm and this time it was 178bpm!

It feels way more real now. Chad and I were both super giddy as we left this time. We also were able to make another u/s appt since my OB appt is still so far out. Holla!